Hi, my name is Dagger and I woke up bitchy today, LOL.
Ok now that you all know that…
I have really being coming out of my ’shell’ lately. Ever since I have decided to move and I stood up to my ‘problem’, I have been taking charge of my life a little at a time, turning it into the direction I want it to go into. I don’t really know exactly what that direction is right now, so I am kinda going in circles and I feel a bit confused, but I am making some progress and it is great!
I have noticed I have become more social and I am willing to try new things. For example, this weekend I am helping a co-worker paint her house. How awesome is that? In the past I would have made up some excuse as to why I didn’t have the time. Being in a social situation like that would have made me panicky. However when she asked me for my help my response was ‘Heck yeah! I like paint!’ LOL!
A lot of people can tell I am ‘changing’ I am not as quiet as I used to be. If something bothers me, I say it…whether this is a good thing…I do not know. For example:
Work has been stressful this week. My scanning partner has been gone for the entire week so I have been *trying* to do the work of 2 people without going into overtime. (Overtime = Death Sentence) Today, I was making some copies when a co-worker started telling me all this stuff to do. She was not asking, she was telling. I simply do not have time for her shit this week.
So, I stopped her mid-sentence and said, “Congratulations on your promotion!”
She gave me a puzzled look and then said, “I didn’t get a promotion.”
I then said, “Oh, then why are you telling me what to do?”
I giggled at myself cause I thought it was pretty funny and I was in disbelief that I had actually said that. She didn’t find it all that funny….She went to the boss. 30 minutes later I was in the Boss’s office, really nervous. I told my boss exactly what happened…she laughed, she thought it was funny too!
‘In my shell Dagger’ would have not said anything, she would have just sat at her scanner, getting pissed at her co-worker, never saying anything and she would have done what her co-worker was asking, even though it was not her responsibility and she did not have the time.
I have been told by a few close people that I have been changing for a while now, but now I am really starting to see it. I think I like it.
By the way, I am probably putting a PS3 on layaway this Saturday! At least I hope I am, I do not know how all that stuff works. If I spent my ‘moving money’ to buy a PS3 I would feel really guilty about it. If I put it on layaway and don’t spend any of the moving money I have saved on it then w00t, it is a much better feeling, even though I will have to wait a bit longer for it!
Wow, I have been writing a lot lately, lol.
