I have been going through a lot of my old stuff from when I was a kid. I found a diary I used to keep and recently read it. This diary was from about 1993-1994, so I was 8 or 9. I wrote about my best friend, Power Rangers, my family, and my future plans. When I was little my plan was to live near Seaport Village in San Diego, CA with my sister Kylee. We would share an apartment and have matching red cars. My diet would consist of lemons, yogurt, and all the gum I ever wanted to buy. LOL!
Now that I am 24, I rarely buy lemons or yogurt and I don’t really like gum anymore. I also drive a silver car and live 30 miles away from Kylee! However the biggest change is, instead of living on the West coast I will be moving East!
“What!? Dagger’s moving!? …yeah, we have heard that before…”
LOL, all of you shush! I know I was going to move before, but I had a job which was hard to leave and I decided to start working on my Computer Science degree. Well, as off April 16th I have been laid off and school…well… To be honest I am not happy with the school here. I LOVED my first semester! I was learning, it was a challenge, it was new and it was exciting, but my second semester was a joke. We started about a month late, due to my instructor being ill (I know not his fault, but I still had to pay for that month…) we also ended 2 weeks early (Yep, still paid…) out of pure laziness on my instructor’s part. They felt we were “done.” In class we did nothing. Sure sometimes we worked on codes and whatnot, but most of the time it went something like this:
Go to class.
Start working on a code.
Half the class gets confused. (Literally the left side of the room just did not get it and did not try to understand.)
Instructor helps out the confused people instead of leaving them to, I don’t know, READ THE CHAPTER.
Rest of the class plays games on Facebook.
Repeat.
Or we would have the days when our instructor would go on tangents and get completely lost. We would spend our class time looking up stuff on google because he would start some code or script that was way beyond us, confuse the hell out of the left side of the room while the right side of the room tried to figure out what the heck he was saying, only for him to end the class with a “You don’t really need to know this right now. We’ll cover it next year.”
I did enjoy my web programming class, but the expectations in that class were so low it was silly. Same with my graphic design class. I probably went to graphic design 8 or 9 times total. I turned all my work in the last week. The instructor replied that she loved it all, good job, yadda yadda. Well I looked at what I had sent her and I accidentally zipped completely EMPTY folders with NOTHING in them…I had a %133 in that class for a final grade.
I know I was going to a community college, which is not even on the scale with a University, but, wow, that second semester was such a disappointment. I feel like I wasted my time and money. Yes, the credits are good and yes, a 4.0 looks awesome, however when I transfer to a REAL college, will I be ready? I will be expected to have learned 2 years of Computer Science, and so far that has just not happened. I am not going to give up on getting my degree, I will be transferring to Northern Virgina Community College (NOVA)! I just hope I can keep up with the other second year students! I did not sale any of my text books (Except Elementary Algebra) so I can use them as a bit of a reference if I get lost!
As I mentioned above I was laid off as of April. The job market here is just sad. There are no jobs. Period. None. Especially now that the high school kids are taking over the gas station/McDonalds/WalMart type jobs. Not that I would want to work at any of those places, but if I stayed here those would be my only options and I would be forced to suck it up and just do it and hate it, everyday. No thanks, I will pass. (Not putting down anyone who works a job like that. I know how shitty it is, I have done it.)
I have looked into the job market in VA and have applied for a few jobs! I got a call back on 2 of them, however, once they found out I could not come in for an interview because I lived over 1,000 miles away I got the usual, “We will keep your application on file. Feel free to call when you are settled in!” LOL! Still that is more then I would ever get here!
Moving to a new school and moving for better job opportunities are both good reasons to move, however there is one even better reason: Seth. Awww shucks, I just made myself blush like a little girl….damnit! I have been in a long distance relationship with Seth since the end of August/beginning of September and it has been amazing. You have probably seen me spend hours on PSN playing Sacred 2, Resident Evil 5, Borderlands, Dynasty Warriors…all games I have spent hundreds of hours on. Not because they are amazing games, but because I am playing them with an amazing person. It may seem at times like I have fallen off the planet, because every chance I get I just want to talk with him. Wouldn’t you want to do the same if you met the love of your life? I have spent the last months getting to know him, meeting his kids, and falling deeper in love with him.
Being apart has been insanely difficult, but it has also allowed us to build our relationship around communication and trust, both of which I have had trouble with in the past. The thought of living with him is just to good to be true. After all this time apart I know we will never take our time together for granted. Even if it is just me sitting on the couch next to him playing Monster Hunter while he plays Battlefield. The fact that we are just in the same room sends me soaring! I am pretty sure I will have a permanent big giant goofy grin on my face for a very long time.
I am also not completely naive. I know living with someone is a huge adjustment. Plus, boys have cooties and that is a big concern of mine. I am going to have to get a few of those mini cans of Lysol so I can keep them with me at all times. Seriously though, I have said it before and I still know it is true, if I stay in Iowa I will do nothing with my life. I am finally ready to say goodbye to my family, it will be tough, but it is time I started to live my own life.
Seth is flying here on June 5th, he is going to meet my family and then June 6th we are driving back to Virgina together!
