Still Alive!

This was a triumph
I’m making a note here
HUGE SUCCESS
It’s hard to overstate my satisfaction
I was the Alpha…

we do what we must because we can
for the good of all of us except for the ones who are dead
but there’s no sense crying over every mistake
you just keep on trying until you run out of steak
and the killing gets done and we all have lot of fun…

….well, the people who are still alive

I’m not even angry
I’m being so sincere right now
even though you broke my heart and killed me
and torn into pieces
and threw every piece into a fire
as they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now the other werewolves are having a great time
and they’re out of patience, killing one at a time

so I’m glad I got burned
Think of all the things we learned for the people that are still alive

go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay outside
maybe you’ll find someone else to help you
some one like Dajmer
that was a joke, haha, fat chance
anyway this steak is great, it’s so delicious and moist
look at me still talking, when there’s killing to do
when I look out there it makes me glad I’m not you
I’ve werewolves to run, there is revenge to be done
on the people who are still alive

and believe me I am still alive
I’m killing GAP’ers and I’m still alive
I feel FANTASTIC and I’m still alive
While you are dying I’ll be still alive
and when you’re dead I’ll be still alive
STILL ALIVE, still alive

…or not.

 

Yeah, I was the first Werewolf killed in Werewolves of the GAP Part 2, which is run by Nichos. The instant I died that song popped in my head so I fixed it to be werewolf-y. I think I got out at a good time, as the game seems to be getting a little to personal…

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Well, bad news,I went to Walmart to put a PS3 on layaway, I brought it up to the customer service counter and said I wanted to put it on layaway…I was then told they no longer do that anymore. I felt like an idiot and I was really bummed out. The customer service lady said I could apply for a walmart credit card, apparently that now takes the place of layaway. When did this happen and where was I? LOL!

I applied for the card, but I do not think I will be approved…maybe, but I am not counting on it. So now I will just have to wait 4 weeks to get my PS3. I was going to have to wait that long anyways, but with layaway at least I knew I would be able to get the 80GB MGS4 bundle! Who knows if they will still have them in a month!

I will know in 7-10 days whether or not I am approved for the card. If I am approved I will go pick my PS3 up, the day I get the card! Which is awesome…but I do not want to get my hopes up. After I get my PS3 I would cut the card up (and post a pic here as proof!) because that just seems way to easy to abuse.

The games I am planning on getting are:

• Metal Gear Solid 4
• Burnout
• Call Of Duty 4
• MAYBE Rock Band with just the guitar

Of course the main reason I am getting a PS3 is to play with my GAP buddies, what games do you guys play most often???

The Tortoise and …Bitch?

Hi, my name is Dagger and I woke up bitchy today, LOL.

Ok now that you all know that…

I have really being coming out of my ’shell’ lately. Ever since I have decided to move and I stood up to my ‘problem’, I have been taking charge of my life a little at a time, turning it into the direction I want it to go into. I don’t really know exactly what that direction is right now, so I am kinda going in circles and I feel a bit confused, but I am making some progress and it is great!

I have noticed I have become more social and I am willing to try new things. For example, this weekend I am helping a co-worker paint her house. How awesome is that? In the past I would have made up some excuse as to why I didn’t have the time. Being in a social situation like that would have made me panicky. However when she asked me for my help my response was ‘Heck yeah! I like paint!’ LOL!

A lot of people can tell I am ‘changing’ I am not as quiet as I used to be. If something bothers me, I say it…whether this is a good thing…I do not know. For example:

Work has been stressful this week. My scanning partner has been gone for the entire week so I have been *trying* to do the work of 2 people without going into overtime. (Overtime = Death Sentence) Today, I was making some copies when a co-worker started telling me all this stuff to do. She was not asking, she was telling. I simply do not have time for her shit this week.

So, I stopped her mid-sentence and said, “Congratulations on your promotion!”

She gave me a puzzled look and then said, “I didn’t get a promotion.”

I then said, “Oh, then why are you telling me what to do?”

I giggled at myself cause I thought it was pretty funny and I was in disbelief that I had actually said that. She didn’t find it all that funny….She went to the boss. 30 minutes later I was in the Boss’s office, really nervous. I told my boss exactly what happened…she laughed, she thought it was funny too!

‘In my shell Dagger’ would have not said anything, she would have just sat at her scanner, getting pissed at her co-worker, never saying anything and she would have done what her co-worker was asking, even though it was not her responsibility and she did not have the time.

I have been told by a few close people that I have been changing for a while now, but now I am really starting to see it. I think I like it.

By the way, I am probably putting a PS3 on layaway this Saturday! At least I hope I am, I do not know how all that stuff works. If I spent my ‘moving money’ to buy a PS3 I would feel really guilty about it. If I put it on layaway and don’t spend any of the moving money I have saved on it then w00t, it is a much better feeling, even though I will have to wait a bit longer for it! 

Wow, I have been writing a lot lately, lol.

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Is It Just Me or Is it Just Me?

I have been having some insane dreams lately. Last night I had a dream I was flying around in a spaceship looking for hostile planets. I have no idea why. I was with 2 other people, I have no idea who they were, but they were the ones firing the huge guns at the planets and I was giving them orders. (Nice!)

We came upon a small green planet, and started shooting it. Once we felt we had done enough damage we decided to land on the planet and check it out. We landed near a park. I could see giant FRUIT everywhere. Apparently the guns on my ship shot giant fruit, mostly strawberries. Yep, we were trying to destroy a planet by firing giant fruit at it. What the hell?

We went to the park and I noticed on the bottom of the slide there was a tiny goldfish dressed up as a cop. It looked sad and like it needed water. I remember my dream self wanting to put the fish in my water bottle to save him, but I didn’t know if Earth water was the same as this planets water and if that was even what the fish needed. The fish was the only form of life we could find, though there were shops and statues of T-Rex’s all around the park.

We tried to communicate with the fish…he just looked at us. We decided to leave the park and head for a T-Rex statue to read the inscription under it. I never made it to the statue cause I woke up. That was probably one of the weirdest dreams I have ever had, yet I can remember it in very good detail, so I thought I would share it with you guys, lol. Now you all think I am crazy.

I have been SO BUSY lately. I feel like I am ignoring all my on line buddies. JRANE I haven’t talked to you guys in a while….sorry about that. I have got a  lot of stuff on my mind and lately any time I have goes to packing. I have got my backroom back! (Angela finally got all her crap out of there!) It has become my base of operations for all my packing. It’s awesome cause I have plenty of room to just sort things out into to ‘keeping’, ‘good will’ and ‘trash’ piles and then box them accordingly.

I do have a problem though, I get in these moods where I dump out EVERYTHING I have packed and then go thru it again throwing more stuff in the ‘good will’ and ‘trash’ piles. I am a HUGE pack rat, I am trying to get over that, but sometimes I put something in the ‘good will’ pile then the ‘keeping’ pile, then back to the ‘good will’ then back to the ‘keeping’ LOL! I think I am going to make an undecided pile or something.

I don’t know why I have been packing so much lately. Yes, I am moving, but I still do not know WHEN. I don’t think I am mentally/emotionally ready to leave yet so I am making myself be physicallyable to leave at any time to make up for it. It makes no sense, but I don’t know. I am trying not to stress over the move. I don’t want to rush myself and have another outburst like I did a few weeks ago…(Goodbye blog, lol) but at the same time, I WANT to move NOW. Does that make sense, wanting to move NOW, but not thinking I am quite ready yet, so then I make myself get physically ready since I am not mentally ready…wait…what? LOL! I don’t know, I am not going to try and figure myself out.

I Want My, I Want My, I Want My PS3

Lately it seems everyone and their mother has a PS3. I have been thinking about it and I really want one as well. Before I could careless about owning a PS3, I was happy with my 360 and my other older systems. Then I went to Colorado. I saw GAP’ers playing Burnout on JR’s PS3 and I played a little MGS4. I also got to take a peek at a few other games, like WarHawk, which would be an awesome game to play with the ‘Socom 2 gang.’ 

Another big factor for my recent want for a PS3, is the people that own a PS3 are the ones I want to play with. I cannot remember the last time I played online with my 360. There are no GAP game nights. The only games I have ever played online with my 360 are Guitar Hero 3 and Rock Band…both which are available on the PS3. JR has a PS3, JANE has a PS3, and now even Chuck has one. To make it as blunt as possible: THIS BLOWS!

I got the wrong system. I can admit that. Sure all these RPG’s are coming out for the 360. I love RPG’s, but I would rather play a crappy shooter with my friends then an awesome RPG by myself. I hope this doesn’t come off as me being a selfish jerk. I mean, I am not mad at anyone for owning a PS3. I am just jealous, lol. Especially with the new Socom coming out and Socom2  Tuesdays being about dead. There is nothing for me to play with other GAP’ers. I feel like I am really missing out.

I have been thinking of a few ways to get a PS3. My first thought was trading in my 360 and my games. I do not know if I could actually do that though. I never play it, but I still like knowing it is there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s just the crazy gamer inside me that won’t even let me trade in Unlimited Saga, which I will NEVER play. I thought about just trading in my 360 system and not my games, I can always buy a 360 later, the prices are really coming down. I am considering this still, even though Fable 2 is coming out, finally a game I might actually play online.

I had other ideas as well. Prostitution, came to mind. However, I am a 23 year old virgin, prostituting my way to a PS3 is not exactly how I pictured my ‘first time’, LOL.  Then again….wait no, bad Jenna! There is also the thought of putting one on layaway at walmart. I know I want the MGS4 bundle for it’s backwards compatibility. I also have a $60 walmart card I got for my birthday that could go towards a down payment. I am going to call around andsee if I can find a WalMart in the area that still has the MGS4 bundle, if I can find one then that may be what I am going to do. I could also apply for a Best Buy or Walmart card. I have no idea what my credit is though andthe thought of having another card…well I might get myself in trouble with that.

If I do get a PS3 then I have this guilty feeling. It’s something like, “Jenna you should be saving all your money for moving not buying a system…” Sometimes I wish that little voice would just shut up.

There is another plan for a PS3. If I stay in Iowa until December 16th all my Paid Time Off at work renews. I don’t use it, I quit, I get it paid out to me. That right there could buy a PS3. If I stay til January 2nd I would also get 3 attendance days paid out to me. It is a tempting thought. A free PS3 AND a few games, just for staying a few extra months. I have lived here 10 or so years, what is a few more months? I know JRANE stand by whenever I decide to move and that is awesome, but I don’t know if it is worth it or not. I would be REALLY risking the snow then…argh.

Any ideas on how to get a PS3, LOL?